Long days :(

So these last couple days have been my winter break. December 22 - Jan 3. And oh my goodness these last few days after Christmas is over have been long and boring. Monday Travis and I went to see "We Bought A Zoo" (which, by the way, was adorable) and we had a lot of fun :) but the theatre was PACKED. :(

I keep having bad dreams. I've been going to bed around 10 and having horrible nightmares. Very realistic nightmares too. Like on Sunday night I had a dream that I was...violated (for lack of a better term) and then Travis broke up with me because he thought it was me that made the first move. It was terrible. He, like, dumped me on the streets in NYC and it was really scary. I love Travis AND New York and both were wrapped up into a horrible dream. :(

I'm watching "The Big Bang Theory" right now :) I love this show <3

I'm tired. So I'm going to sleep. Sorry for the somewhat depressing post :\

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nat "king" cole

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore

And love is all that I can give to you

Love is more then just a game for two

Two in love can make it

Take my heart and please don't break it

Love was made for me and you <3

From my iPad!

Greetings fellow readers ;) it is I, Megan from her brand new APPLE iPAD!!!!!! :O ahhhhh! (the only problem is the dumb autocorrect that I keep forgetting to turn off :p )

It is raining severely here. Like really bad. It started out just muggy this morning and now there's a full blown storm :\ I hate the rain. Especially when it's also only 30 degrees outside. :(

Well this post is going to be short and this will be one of few posts from my iPad because unfortunately this app isn't made for iPad only iPod so it's a little fuzzy :p

I love you guys! Talk to you soon!!!!! :)

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Travis

When I see your face,
My heart glows,
My face lights up,
And my happiness grows.

Your smile
Oh, your smile.
It makes me feel so secure.
And when I'm in your arms,
I'm safe for sure.

You keep me warm
Pleasant and happy,
When you're not around
I turn very sappy.

We have a great time
Especially not at school
Like when we went to the movies,
That was pretty cool :)

So I know what you're thinking,
"She's so sweet,"
But all I want to say is
I know you'll never cheat.

You are wonderful and kind,
Gracious and great,
I couldn't even think
Of wiping a clean slate :)

We have so much history
So many memories to choose...
Remember the rubber bands?
I still have the bruises!

I love you a lot Travis <333333 Hope you liked this pathetic whim of a poem <3

Don't Freak... I Know It's Tuesday...

IT IS OK. THE WORLD IS NOT ENDING. JUST CONTINUE READING.

:) Sorry I'm just really really really bored so I just HAD to update... Even though it's Tuesday.

OMG ONLY 2 DAYS TILL BREAK! I am so freaking excited! You don't know how much I need this break. I am so tired permanent circles have begun forming under my eyes that no amount of concealer can hide.

Yeah. So now I have to keep working on my essay for English. WHOOP WHOOP.

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LIMERICKS!

In creative writing, we've been exploring many different forms of poetry. Personally, I like limericks. They're funny :) Here's a bunch that I wrote the other day in class!!! ENJOYYYY


Poor Richard was on a rock.
Poor Richard was eating lox.
He sat on down,
And then he frowned,
Poor Richard died on that rock.

Jean is beautiful as can be
Jean is as beautiful as she,
Jean sat on a block
That was on top of a rock
And then Jean looked at the sea.

There once was a man named Stu.
He fell into the loo.
And then one day,
He went to play
And then changed his name to Lou.

There was once a broom.
He liked to assume.
But then one time,
He made a rhyme.
And made an ASS out of U and ME… - um.

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4 More Days of Torture...

Only 4 more days of school until HOLIDAY BREAK!!!!!!!!! AHHHH! THANK GOD!

I don't know how I've managed to survive this long. Travis has helped a lot, not to mention I have some great friends that I can talk to :)

Next weeks agenda:
~Monday
-APWH test part 1 (MCQ)
-Gym test on the muscles
-English test on a book that I've barely started... :P
~Tuesday
-Math study guide due
-Auditions for the spring show (!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
~Wednesday
-APWH test part 2 (BCRs)
~Thursday
-German test
-Parts for the show are posted and if I get in I get my script

Well yay. So instead of studying for my tests, I've been writing down everything that I had to study for and shared them with you :D YAY PROCRASTINATION!!!!

I went on a date with Travis on Friday :) We went to see "Arthur Christmas." It was cute :) But the fun part was cuddling with Travis while we waited for his mom... and then my butt went super numb but it was freezing so I wasn't leaving his arms :) We had a lot of fun :D I wish we could do stuff like that more often but both of us have busy weekends all the time :\

My sister went to see "Chipwrecked" today for a birthday party and she said it was pretty good. I want to see it... maybe over winter break...

I babysat for two of my favorite kids last night :) Abby and Sydney are so cute and fun and hilarous :) I love babysitting for them! They are 10 and 8. I always have fun with them and their mature so it's not even like I'm babysitting. It's like I'm hanging out with really really short friends ;)

Well, I've procrastinated long enough. Good bye to the rest of my day :P Hello APWH test. Whoop whoop. :(

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Things Are... Complicated.

It's amazing isn't it? How one week I can be giddy and happy and then the next week... I'm not. I mean, who knew one person could say one thing that ruined my entire weekend! That's why I am updating today instead of yesterday. Because I was incapable yesterday or Saturday or Friday. Thursday was terrible. Friday I had a field trip. Today was horrible. Must I continue?

Okay. So Thurday was terrible on its own but what really got me was a stupid conversation in Creative Writing. Actually, let me back up a little bit.

Last week, I went to my principal to talk to her about something that shall remain unnamed. But it was important to me and I felt very strongly about it. And it caused my principal to do something drastic, which was not my intent. I didn't want to come on as a threat but she (I guess) felt threatened by my confrontation. So in Creative Writing, a girl made a snarky comment about what had happened. She didn't know it was I who had gone and talked to the principal, but she knew someone had and that she was a sophomore. She said some terrible things. It made me want to crawl into a hole forever.

And Friday was a gym field trip where we did zumba which was a lot of fun ;)

But then today I begged my mom to let me stay home but she wouldn't let me. She said I had to face my fears and just go to school. I didn't want to admit it, but I knew she was right. Staying home wouldn't get rid of my problems. It would just make them worse. So I went to school, half-crying. When I saw Kaitlyn I just broke down and burst into tears. I was terrified. So I just sat down on the steps and cried and cried. Eventually I calmed down a little bit and decided to go into the bathroom to wash up my face (I had mascara and eyeliner on... not a good choice apparently). I walked in to find a bunch of girls who were talking. Mid sentence, they looked at me, and started laughing. I mean, I knew I probably looked ridiculous with mascara running down my face, but really? Isn't it obvious that I had just been crying? So then I started crying AGAIN because people just suck. I don't know how I made it through the day without ripping my hair out, but I did.

Now, on a happier point, Travis and I are great :) We talk all the time and we might hang out this weekend. :D I hope we can... and so does he. We rarely get to see each other at school as it is, and on the weekends he's usually at his dad's in PA so we don't get to hang out over the weekends usually. But I'm hoping we can maybe go to the mall and just walk around. I'm so jealous of all the couuples walking around holding hands... just talking... Travis and I need to do that :)

I'm teching my first show tomorrow night! I'm doing the lights and sound for Carrie's chorus show! I'm not excited at all! I may seem excited because I'm using a lot of exclamation points, but I'm really not! I just want to see the concert. I'm so not being a techie next year. Sorry, Carrie, but its not interesting to me in any way possible. I love you baby :))

Well, I've procrastinated long enough. Time to jump back into APWH homework... yay...

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PS: I've decided to start putting a song lyric into the "labels for this post" box. Just, like, if there's a song that's stuck in my head or a song that I think goes really well with the update/poem/story/etc. Just wanted to give you a heads up!

Fieldsgrove

Always light and open, Fieldsgrove was a simple place. It's residents always greeted each other sweetly and sincerely. Smaller than Lichtenstein, Fieldsgrove was a place of complete serenity.
The streets were a mix of cobblestone and dirt and the entire village was like out of a picture; It was as though all of the people were painted in with every movement.
The houses were small and blue with white shingles. The street that circled Town Square was somewhat of a cloudy bronze color. The serendipity of the area wafted through the air.
Most of the perimeter was rural with farmland that had rolling hills of fern and honeydew and in the autumn the fields were blanketed with all shades of red, yellow, and orange imaginable!
The skies were royal blue with puffy pearl white clouds on nice days. It rarely rained in Fieldsgrove but when it did, the place became very dark and somewhat dreary. The people pulled out their barely-used umbrellas and scurried around to avoid getting wet.
Sunset was the best time of day for Fieldsgrove. The sky turned dark purple with yellows and pinks and greens all mixed together.
Mostly the days were wonderful and sunny. Everyone always had a smile apon their face. It was fantastically unreal how everyone got along. You don't see that everyday in ordinary places. Everyone was happy.
Or appeared to be happy. But underneath, the people of Fieldsgrove were miserable. Always having to follow the rules was a nasty reminder of the horrific past of Fieldsgrove.
The legend is told, "Once, long ago, there was a man called Rupert Fields. He was the original leader of the smallish village, and thought he was worthy enough to be named king. He had the local printer rewrite the front page to the next day's newspaper. Instead of “Ford Moves Forward” it was “Fields Named King.” The printer reluctantly sent the messenger around with the new headline. It was a joyous day for Rupert, but the vexation of the villagers was practically palpable. Rupert created a new constitution for all of the town to obey. If one refused, consequences were severe.
Everyone feared Rupert but had no choice but to obey his every whim. One day, a woman named Virginia came along, visiting a cousin who resided in the little town. Rupert was making his daily rounds, making sure everyone was following the rules, when he spotted Virginia and her cousin walking out of a shop. Rupert went over to her and asked for her hand in marriage. Virginia didn't know what to say.
Virginia was quite beautiful, but she had a love back at her home. She couldn't marry Rupert. She told Rupert of the perdicament, and went on her way. Virginia was staying in the village for only a few days, so Rupert knew he had to act quickly. He sent her flowers and chocolates asking repeatedly for her hand. Rupert had never seen someone so beautiful, so perfect in every way.
Virginia finally agreed to marry Rupert, but with much regret. He had threatened to imprison Virginia's cousin. Being the kind person she was, Virginia gave in and married Rupert that day. She sent a message to her love back home, to tell him that she wouldn't be returning. She loved him dearly, but had to stay for her cousins safety. Virginia didn't tell him that she was already married.
Virginia was miserable being married to Rupert. Watching innocent people being imprisoned for no reason, listening to her husband read off the laws to unruly citizens. It was unbearable.
Eventually, Virginia had had enough. She sent a letter to her love at her old home, to tell him that she couldn't be with him ever again, but that she loved him very much. That night, Virginia ran herself through with a dagger. When Rupert saw what had happened to his wife, he automatically presumed that it had been one of the guards. Rupert was outraged, and immediately interrogated each solitary guard until he came to the conclusion that his love had committed suicide.
Rupert was devestated. He told his people that from now on, their town would be forever called Fieldsgrove, combining both his and Virginia's last names. After the announcement, Rupert himself died of poisoning.
The villagers always obeyed the orders of Rupert Fields because they were afraid that the haunting of the town would come after them.
People always feared walking past the Fieldsgrove Manor, in fear that the ghosts of Rupert and Virginia would come after them. No one ever went missing, and no attacks were ever recorded, but people were scared anyway."
So that is the legacy of the small town. Every solitary law was obeyed, every person living in fear. The new mayor of the town was a direct descendent of Rupert's, but was much kinder. He stuck to his great great grandfather's original constitution which, luckily, was very broad and unspecific. Mayor Harris was able to give more freedoms to his people, though they still followed the laws as Rupert would have wanted.
And so, life went on as planned by Rupert. Always amiable, always sociable. Haunted by their pasts, the citizens of Fieldsgrove went on like any other little town in the middle of no where. Even if it's secret was the thing that disturbed them the most, everyone stayed. Frightened by the ghosts, the legend, and the secret itself.


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"My Fireplace Sings"

Waiting on my sofa,
Sitting.
Sitting very still.
Listening very closely...
Do you hear it?
The wind whistling?
It's singing,
Singing softly to me
Saying everything will be alright.
A single tear runs down my cheek,
When I think about how she hurt me.
“Shh,” the wind whispers.
“Everything will be alright.”
I strengthen up,
Gotta stay tough.
The world isn't as welcoming.
I know it's not as bad as it seems,
But it hurts.
Sitting.
All alone.
Just me and my fireplace.
The wind blowing.
Blowing,
Whistling,
Singing.
My fireplace sings to me.
Softly and gently,
I drift off to sleep.
Only happy thoughts in my mind,
The last thing I heard...
Was my fireplace singing.


I was thinking about submitting this to a contest... Thoughts? :)

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Happy December!

Greetings world! Happy December! It's finall here, and it has been much anticipated with all of the holidays :) I am Jewish, so I celebrate Hanukkah. For those of you that don't know, Hanukkah is the Festival of Lights, where each night, for 8 nights, we light the candles on a Menorah and say a prayer and give presents. I love it because I love getting together with family and passing on a tradition that so many before us did. It's also nice getting presents ;)

So yesterday was mine and Travis's one month anniversary! One whole month we've been dating, and it seems like so much less. I like him so much... But I'm still not sure on what to get him for Christmas... I wrote him a poem but I don't think that's enough... I'm making cookies so maybe I'll set aside some for him too... hmm... Travis, if you're reading this, I hope you like my cookies :)

I had 2 quizes today. One in Bio and one in English. The Bio test was like 15 questions and I got an 11/15. That's a C. :( But the English test was a unit test so I have a better chance of getting a good grade... more points :) There were two ECR's (extended constructed response) on The Joy Luck Club. It was a reallly good book and I definitely recommend it! But not to read for school... just to read for fun. We had to, like, analyze the author's message and crap and that's annoying :P

So that's it I guess... Not too much happened this week... Of course, I'm updating today instead of on Saturday because I'm sleeping over at Carrie's on Saturday :) So there's always tomorrow, but don't expect an update :P I'll probably come home and eat and go to sleep. I am so tired. High school is exhausting.

I just realized something... I started this blog my freshmen year. It's been over a year that I've had this thing and this will only be my 92nd post. I gotta start posting more often!

Make sure you follow me on Twitter (@megsterrachel) and "like" me on Facebook (Megster Rachel)!!!

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PS: For those of you who don't know, I am a massive Harry Potter fan... and Pottermore is STILL only opened to those who got the early addmission. The only reason I didn't get the early addmission was because I had to go to an "AP Class Starter" over the summer the days that Pottermore was open! :'(

PPS: Sorry this post is late. I meant to update yesterday (I typed it up yesterday) but then as I was posting it, my computer froze. So, apologies :)

Okay, now my signiture heart thingie.

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