Everything Has Changed

It's been a while. I'm sorry! I just haven't been inspired in the least bit.

I've been in a slump. But I also haven't been. I'm basically just very confused all the time with my emotions.

Let me start with where I left off on the 13th. The Walking Dead season premiere was INCREDIBLE. It did not disappoint me. I was thrilled. It's been a good season so far. SO good.

I'm doing okay with school... I have 5 A's, a high C in Sociology, and... Math is undetermined. I'd rather not share how horribly I'm doing in that class. The first quarter ends on Wednesday and I'm very nervous.

I've come to the decision that I'm going to go to HCC for a few semesters before I go to WC. I realized how unready I am to be independent and go off and be in college. I can barely take care of myself as a senior. I just don't think I'm mature enough for real college. I'd feel more comfortable going to community college for a year or two first.

It's really a win-win. I get my prerequisites out of the way for a LOT less, I can learn how to be responsible and independent, and I can still be with my family for a while longer. I haven't decided if I'm going to be living AT home during this excursion, but I probably will (simply because I can't support myself on minimum wage and I can't get a "real" job without some college experience).

I've created a few new characters, my favorites being Essie (controls music) and Amy (controls blood). I've been trying to write some stories or RP with them but I haven't had a whole lot of time to develop them.

Work is going pretty good. I've only been working with Heather for the last month or so. That's cool though, because we get sushi and stuff for dinner sometimes. Plus, she's just really cool :)

Tech week is coming up in two weeks. I'm nervous as hell. From what I've heard from Tabby and Brock, we're BARELY prepared.

I have the role of The Bearded Lady, so I'm only in one scene. I have to go to rehearsals the week before tech, and of course the week of tech. I'll also be training some newbies for backstage. I'll be credited for that as well.

I have to give a speech this year... I wrote my senior bio and it was so depressing. It was so hard to write and I don't even know what I'm going to say for my green room speech. There's only a handful of us seniors, so we'll have a little bit more time than in the past. I'm going to cry. But I can't wait. I took off work for this and I'm ready to go back to my home. It's been so long since I've been part of a production with school... I miss it so much.

We don't have school Thursday and Friday this week! I'm thrilled. There's the last football game on Friday and I'm hoping to go. Ryan got to hang out with me for the second half the other night, and I'll get to see him for 3rd quarter next game.

Oh yeah, Ryan is my boyfriend :) We're planning a date for this weekend to see Ender's Game. I'm so excited, you guys have no idea.

The football game on Friday was so much fun. I hung out with Madison and Tynan for the first half, and then Ryan came out and we finally got to see each other for an extended period of time for the first time since Homecoming. It was so nice. :) It was freezing but that's what made it fun. At least it didn't rain this time..

I finally did my laundry! I don't know why I feel the need to share this with you all, but I'm just happy all of my sweatpants are now fresh and clean. It's starting to get really cold here and I love coming home from school and getting straight into my pajamas.

Last night I went over to Carrie's for a product party with my mom. Have you guys heard of "Origami Owl?" It's this jewelry company that was started by a 14 year old girl in Arizona. It's the coolest thing I've seen in a while. Their main product is called a "living locket."

It's a circular locket that holds loose charms. The charms are loose because things change and that's just like life. My locket is in the Medium in Rose Gold and my charms are a phone booth (dual meaning: my love for everything British and my love for Doctor Who... it looks like a TARDIS), a little gold heart (to represent my love for romance), drama masks (to show my dedication to theatre and tech), and a treble clef (to display my love for singing). I also have a "tag" on the outside of the locket that says "DREAM" because I'm a dreamer. It's sooo pretty.

I have to work on an essay about Macbeth now.

Sigh. School always ruins everything.

I vote me and all of my friends take a gap year next year and go on a road trip before college. Sound like a plan? Jean, hit me up about this ;)

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GIMME AN S!

Hey guys, guess what. I'M A SENIOR. LIKE IT FINALLY HIT ME.

Spirit Week 2k13:

MONDAY: Get Up And Go Day -
I literally got up and went. I showered the night before and I put my hair up and I wore my Grumpy pajamas and I was comfy all day. The only thing that would've made it better would've been if it hadn't been POURING.

TUESDAY: Costume/Twin Day -
I dressed up as a doctor with my friend Dana :) We wore these HUGE scrubs that were probably four sizes too big but it was fun anyway. I was freezing all day though because they were thin and we still have the air on in our school :P

WEDNESDAY: Wacky Wednesday -
Clash day was interesting... I wore a flower printed dress, a heart printed sweater, a purple polka dotted scarf, a jangly necklace, and two different shoes. I also wore two different makeup looks on my eyes, which was interesting. Of course, I had to fix it before I had work that night but whatever.

THURSDAY: Throwback Thursday -
TOGA, TOGA, TOGA! Seniors wore togas on Thursday and it was amazing. It rained again and it was absolutely FREEZING but none of us cared. It was finally our turn.

FRIDAY: Spirit Day! -
OUR TIME. My senior shirt was amazing, if I do say so myself. Seniors wear black on spirit day so all the colors we used POPPED LIKE CRAZY. My friends and I all spelled out "SENIORS '14" on our shirts and I was the first "S." I also cut the hem so I had fringe at the bottom. Seniors also get to decorate crowns to be worn all day. Mine was painted black and has sparkly blue ribbon around the bottom.

FRIDAY NIGHT: Football! -
Madison and I got together after school and went to Sweet Frog for frozen yogurt. I got cookies and cream yogurt with oreos, sno-caps, M&Ms, and hot fudge. It was so good. I want to go back...

We then went to the homecoming game for a while, where it RAINED AGAIN. But it was so much fun. We hung out with Carrie and her boyfriend and our friend David. We met some freshmen and we all talked. HI TYNAN!

SATURDAY: Homecoming <3 -="" p="">Ryan Smith was my wonderful date :) He got me a beautiful corsage and we took pictures and it was fun. Then we got to the dance, I took off my shoes, and we danced. Neither of us are particularly "good" dancers, but we made it work :)
    
We slow danced to fast songs. That's right, we're THOSE people. He just held me all night and it was perfect. I just wish it had been longer. Then he dropped me off at home and kissed me good night :) Thank you Ryan for making my senior homecoming absolutely perfect :)

I honestly can't stop thinking about last night. It really was perfect. Even though the music sucked and the lights were on the whole time and people were being stupid and provocative, I still had the time of my life. I couldn't have asked for a better last homecoming.

Congrats to Manny and Katie for being our homecoming royalty!!

Me and Ryan :)

Me, awaiting the arrival of my friends

Nick, Carrie, Me, and Ryan

Trying not to stab Ryan with the pin

Me, Renee, and Care

My gorgeous corsage :)

So far, senior year has been pretty terrible, but this week made up for it big time.
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I'm Scared.

I'm scared because I know what it's like to feel the weight of the world on your shoulders and not be able to do anything about it. I know what it's like to take one look at someone and know how much they mean to you and how little you mean to them.

I'm scared because one day I'm going to have to leave this place and go off and live my own life. I'm scared because I know that I am indignant and ignorant and a little fish in a really big bowl and that I have to deal with that.

I'm scared because I'm upset. I'm scared that one day it'll all be too much and I'll just give up and give in. I'm scared because the pain is beating down hard like rain and I can't jump in the puddles and make it splash away.

I'm scared that one day I'll have a child and I'll have no idea what to do. That she'll come to me with questions about things I can't answer. She'll come to me when a bully pulls on her pigtails and I'll know not what to do but to dry her tears and tell her it'll be alright. I'm scared that it won't be enough.

I'm scared to speak up for myself. I'm scared that if I tell everyone what's really on my mind, they'll look at me as if I'm the nut job that lives down the street that shouts at invisible cars and baseballs. I'm afraid they'll judge me and tell me that I'm stupid or my ideas are incoherent.

I'm scared I'm not good at helping people, when that's all I want to do. I want to open people's minds and show them a new way of thinking. I'm scared of close minded people stopping me.

I'm scared because I'm discouraged. I'm scared to confront people and show them what I've been working on. I'm scared because it's so easy to get frustrated and put things off.

I'm scared I'm a procrastinator. I'm afraid that eventually, when I'm all grown up in my house with the wraparound porch, I'll get lazy and forget to pay the water bill and the electricity and the mortgage and everything will fall apart.

I'm scared but I'm ready. I'm creative and I love what I do and it's all I want to do and I know that all of my roadblocks and speed bumps are just that: Blocks and bumps. Things that may take a while to get out of, but not impossible.

Frohe Oktober!

To those of you that aren't aware, that means "Happy October." Because I like autumn.

The last few days have been... Well, lets just say my feelings are a bit inconclusive at this time.

As you know from my previous post, I had a pretty terrific weekend. On Saturday I made my senior sweats with my friends (school tradition) and then went to the Writers Club.

On Sunday, Vince and I went back to Jean's and we all hung out and went out for dinner and RPed a lot and it was probably the best day I've had in a really really long time. I want to relive it. Like now.

On Monday, I, once again, went to Jean's to hang out because we were all just having a shit day and we just wanted to RP and hang out with each other and it was a lot of fun and a huge stress reliever.

Tuesday and Wednesday are kind of a blur... I know yesterday I "Germaned" all day (the act of speaking German and partaking in German culture), but that's about all I remember about school.

Then I had work. And don't even get me STARTED about work last night, because I honestly don't think I can say anything about it nicely. Mom always said "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all," right? So I will shut my mouth and stop talking about it.

Just know that I'm really pissed off and REALLY GLAD I don't have to work all weekend.

Today I had two tests in my two hardest classes. And guess what dumbass failed both of them. This one.

So that was just the cherry on top of my week.

I'm trying to keep my hopes up for this weekend though. It should be pretty fabulous. Let me elaborate.

Tomorrow I get to "German" all day. First period I get to skip Drama and go and work the Oktoberfest (if you don't know what that is, it's like German Marti Gras), then I have German as an actual period, then Aide and Master Tutor. SO MUCH DEUTSCH. DAS IST PRIMA, JA?

Anyway, then I get to come home and I'm going to go right to sleep. Probably. Or I'll actually get a move on and write for the first time in three months. I've been making up a few character sheets for new characters that I'm pretty excited to write with. So stay tuned for that.

Saturday is the annual ZOMBIE RUN, for which I am extremely excited! My dad and I are going to drive down to Southern Maryland and he's going to run a zombie 5K whilst I scope out hot guys. I usually bring a friend but Jean has rehearsals :( So I shall look at all the cosplayers alone. C'est la Vie.

I have no clue what I'm doing Sunday. Hopefully I'll get to do something fun, to put an awesome end to a hopefully awesome weekend.

Basically I'm just super stressed out and my weeks are going by slower and slower yet so much faster. It's already October, guys. I have a finite amount of time to apply to colleges, which I don't even know if I want to go to anymore.. I kind of just want to hang out at HCC for a couple of years while I figure everything out.

Don't get me wrong, I love writing and German and theatre and everything, but I don't know what to do with my life. Those things that I'm so passionate about kind of put a stopper on my possible job options. And that scares me. A lot. Writing and acting are so hard to get a career out of and I need a backup plan.

I'm having so much trouble this year, and it was supposed to be great. I gave AP Stats a month and I'm done. I'm failing miserably and I need to get out. Of course, my guidance office told me that I need to do that through the principal, which terrifies me. It's going to be nearly impossible to get myself out of that class.

It's not like I'm not trying, because I am, but I'm just not getting it and I can't afford to have D's and E's on my report card. I just can't.

I'm sorry I sound all bipolar in this. I go from "my week sucked" to "I can't wait for this weekend" to "I hate my life."

You guys are just going to have to deal with it, okay? I'm under so much pressure and I can't get rid of it because this is my future we're talking about here.

On the slight upside, Macbeth is amazing and I think I'm the only one in my Brit lit class that actually likes it. It's a really fabulous play.

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Writers Club!

Last night was probably one of the most fun nights I've had in a very very long time.

Jean had this idea to gather a bunch of us together to enhance our writing abilities. Everyone there writes fantasy as a main genre, aside from me, but The Society is fantasy, so it all worked out.

Last night was me, Vince, Sarah, and Hunter all at Jean's house. There was tea and cookies and ROLE PLAY.

Let me tell you something. You all remember when I discovered RP on Facebook with Jean, correct? RP in person is SO MUCH MORE FUN. Last night's was a little chaotic because Sarah and I had never RPed in person before, but it was so much fun once we got the hang of it. I'm really surprised I didn't laugh or break character.

I played as Silence. It was so much fun to embody her and act as a badass. Silence is really sarcastic and feisty, and it was fun to express that.

It was fun to just hang out with people who want to do the same thing that I want to do. We all just want to write. And most of us are easily discouraged, and I feel like this will motivate us to actually create things.

I drove myself and my parents didn't really give me a set time to come home, but I left around 10. I didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay all night. I wanted us all to stay all night and just not break character and improv as long as we could.

It was exciting.

As antisocial I am, I'm always really happy after I go out and spend time with real people.

It was just a lot of fun.

I'm also sorry I haven't updated since September 15. I haven't really felt like blogging or writing lately. Maybe this will motivate me.

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Fine day, Sunday.

If you know where the quote from the title of this post is from, leave me a comment and I will love you forever.

ANYWAY! Hello :)

So, as you all know, I earned my license on Thursday. If you know me, you know how often I complain about driving and how much I hate it.

I'd like to take the time now to take back all of those complaints and say that it's so much fun when you actually have the right to do it by yourself.

I drove myself to and from work last night and it was just wonderful. I walked right into work and held up my keys and mouthed "I drove myself!" to Morgan, who was with a customer, and she gives me a thumbs up and grins.

I have found that I am a nervous talker, and I often find myself blabbing about nothing whilst I'm behind the wheel. But then I discovered this thing called The Radio that lets me distract myself from my nervousness and not look like a crazy person talking to myself in my car.

I'm kidding. I know what the radio is. But I never really listened to music while I drove because my dad was always like "no you need to concentrate on the road!" But now I'm driving solo, so I can listen to WHATEVER I WANT. AND IT'S SO NICE.

Today I woke up to the smell of bacon in the house and I was greeted with waffles and fried pig fat when I entered the kitchen.

Then we made plans for the day. My parents needed to go to target and I needed to go to the bank and the drugstore, so I took Melanie and Meredith with me on my errands.

I deposited my two most recent paychecks and I now have almost $600 in my bank account!!!! A whopping $600!!! It's exciting for me.

Of course, since I'm still a minor, I am unable to withdraw any money from my account, so after we went to CVS, we had to go home, for there was almost no gas left in the car by this point.

Eventually my mom and dad got home and Mom went out to get gas and get money for Melanie and I, who were going to Barnes and Noble, Starbucks, and Michaels for poster board.

We had a really fun time out. We left our house around 11 or 11:30 and didn't get home till 1ish.

We went to Barnes and Noble and smelled books and bought one for my mom, which she'd sent us out to get. Then we went over to Starbucks and got drinks and coffee cake. I got a white chocolate mocha (which I added whole milk and cinnamon to) and Mel got a double chocolate frap thing.

I had WANTED to get a Cinnamon Dolce Crème Frap but for some reason, it wasn't on the menu. It was on the website but not on the menu. I don't frequent Starbucks very often, and I was wondering if you can order things not on the menu. Like everything up on the menu was very generic and boring, besides the Pumpkin Spice stuff. So if someone could help me with this problem, I'd be very grateful!

After our coffee and cake, we walked over to Michaels and bought Melanie some poster board. By this point, we only had about $6 left in cash. Starbucks is freaking expensive.

Moral of the post: I really enjoy driving around town by myself or with my sisters. I feel more confident now about driving for some reason. Like now that I know the professionals have faith in me, I have faith in me. If that makes any sense... Probably not.

I'm quite sick at the moment and I keep having these awful coughing fits that leave me curled up in a ball and eyes all watery. It's very unpleasant. Melanie and Meredith have similar symptoms.

Sigh. School tomorrow, and I still don't have a car of my own. I need my own car. I really love my dad's car (if you took out all the boy-ness of it, i.e. garbage and all of his work stuff) and it's a good, nice size for me. But I'd really like one of my own that I bought by myself and it could be all mine :) I shall name it.

Any ideas on names? Let me know. I like Shakira and Timothy so far.

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5 Things I Suck At Pertaining To Writing

1) Chapters.
     I suck at chapters. I never want to end a thought on a cliff-hanger-type tangent, so my chapters all run on into one long 100 page or so story. I just like to have all of my thoughts flow evenly and nicely and without stopping. Which probably isn't ideal for most readers.

2) Time.
     I want everything to be written out chronologically and extremely detailed, even though most people hate that. Like I want each moment to be played out so that it's like a movie, but obviously that's not the most quintessential layout for a book.

3) Keeping My Tense.
     I always go back and forth between present tense and past tense and I end up confusing even myself. I can't help it. I can never decide if I want to write in one tense or the other and it all ends up a mess unless I go back and fix it.

4) Remembering Details.
     I can never remember my details. I really should write up character charts and things to remind myself later, but I never do. I can forget something as simple as if the character is left handed or right handed, or to something as important as their last name.

5) Editing.
     I always want to edit before I'm ready. It's a bad idea to go and edit early, before all of the ideas are out there. And it's funny, because I really really hate revising my work. I like it all perfectly but at the same time, in the moment, I want to change it all and start all over.

That's all I can think of right now but I'm sure as soon as I hit "Publish" I'll think of like twenty more things. C'est la Vie.

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The Great Gatsby, The Fault in Our Stars, and License

Three very big things have happened to me over the course of the last few days.

1) I purchased and watched The Great Gatsby (with Tobey Maguire and Leonardo DiCaprio). It was truly a work of art and I was impressed by both the cinematography and the soundtrack. I had heard that the music was going to be modern while the rest of the movie was historically accurate, and I was a bit skeptical at first.

After seeing it through just once, though, I loved it. I thought it all worked together very pleasantly and I was very surprised. I thought it was a very interesting take on a classic American novel. It's definitely one of my favorite books ever and I even want to watch the movie again, and I would if it weren't over two hours in length.

2) I picked up "The Fault in Our Stars" by John Green from the library the other day and I finished it in less than two days. It was absolutely magnificent and I couldn't have asked for anything better to come from one of my favorite YouTubers.

However, as much as I enjoyed it, I felt that the storyline was a bit predictable. Maybe that's just me, but I was able to figure out ahead of time what was going to happen. There were a few surprises, which were very nice (and tragic in some cases) but for the most part it was very predictable.

Don't NOT read it though. It's a really really good book with love and humor and tragedy all wrapped up into 300-odd pages.

3) And finally, I obtained my provisional license today! If you know me personally, you already know that I, unfortunately, failed my drivers test the first time I took it back in August. I ran out of time on the parallel park and cried quite a bit.

Today, however, I completed the closed course as well as the real road course with perfection and awesomeness. Not to toot my own horn or whatever, but TOOT FREAKING TOOT. I don't think I've ever been more proud of myself than I was today when I pulled back into the parking lot of the DMV and ran over to my dad to hug him.

My driving instructor-person was very monotone and made me rather nervous. I was shaking quite a bit and all she kept saying was "do this" and "do that" in a boring voice that made me uncomfortable. Even when she said I had passed and congratulated me, she didn't crack a smile. It doesn't really matter though because I got my LICENSE!!!

And so, that's been my Tuesday-Thursday of this week. Pretty much, anyway. I worked on Wednesday evening with Heather and it was nice. We got out a bit late though because we had some trouble with the register but no worries! We figured it out.

Now I'm off to study for a sociology exam. Very displeasing after such an exciting day. Sigh.

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Humans.

I wasn't originally going to post this. I was just going to rant to myself in a random Open Office document, but I decided to throw it on here as well.

What bothers me the most is how none of us can respect another's interests and knowledge. Not naming names, but I know plenty of people who are not writers and think that they can judge me and argue with me about the basis of writing when, in fact, they know absolutely nothing about the topic.

There's a difference between technical writing and creative writing. One sucks, and one doesn't. The process of writing creatively (as seen in a previous post of mine entitled "My Creative Process") varies depending on the person. And it frustrates me when people tell me that I'm doing it wrong.

I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm doing it my way. You don't see me criticizing the way you play football or nurse a sick patient back to health, so don't criticize the way that I create things.

Why can't you just trust that I know what I'm talking about? It just drives me so crazy when people tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about.

On multiple occasions, I have been told by someone who is NOT a writer, that writing is such a tedious task and there's so many technicalities that go into it and that I have to study to write and I can't just spew it out on paper.

Uh, yeah I can.

I don't need to study how to tell a story. Yeah, my creative writing classes that I've taken over the years have been really helpful in giving me good ideas for stories, but I don't think they've made me any better a writer. I matured by myself.

My writing has matured over the years and, yeah, I'll admit that some of my best stuff was written in class, but it was merely a coincidence. I seriously haven't learned anything in a single creative writing class. My voice is the same, just more mature now that I am older.

You can't study how to write. If you're born to write, you're born to write. It's story telling, just more detailed and typed out instead of spoken aloud.

I'm just really angry about this right now. I'm sorry to rant it but I really needed to.

And don't misinterpret this. This topic goes with any number of passions, whether it be acting or dancing or tight roping walking: Don't let anyone tell you that what YOU love doing is wrong or that you're doing it wrong. You're doing what's best for YOU and THAT'S what's important.

Fun fact, here's another thing that bothers me; The fact that Pumpkin Spice Latte's are actually orange. It just... *shivers*

Thank you for listening to me ramble about what I'm passionate about. I'm sorry if it was a bit incoherent, but seeing as I haven't slept in the last month, give me the benefit of the doubt.

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Life In Letters

If you know me, you know I'm obsessed with YouTube tag videos. I watch way too many of them. I've seen a few of these "Life In Letters" videos and I thought I'd write a post with my own "Life In Letters."

A - A Capella. I absolutely love singing and I love a capella songs and musicians. It's so fascinating to me and I love watching it, whether it be live, in a video, or performed by myself.

B - Blood. I get a lot of blood work done. It sucks. I hate needles.

C - Cupcakes. I work in a bakery. We sell a lot of cupcakes. Also, my friend Shane periodically gives me money to bring him cupcakes every day. It's become like a routine.

D - Driving. I HATE DRIVING. My license test is next in exactly a week and I'm terrified. Parallel parking is so hard. I'm trying to stay confident and positive but it's very hard.

E - Eggs. I make really good scrambled eggs, and I could probably live off of eggs. I love them. Hard boiled, scrambled, fried, I just love them.

F - Friends and Family. They mean the world to me and I don't know how I'd get through all this stuff without them.

G - German. I love German with a passion. I mean, 3/4 of my B days are me taking/teaching German. I'm dedicated. I'd love to minor in it. Maybe even teach it someday. If I had to be a teacher, I'd be German or Drama or some other kind of "elective" teacher.

H - Hugs! I love hugs. They make everything better. Especially when they're from someone who really cares about you. Sometimes you just need a hug.

I - Idiot. I have no common sense and I really don't think before I speak. It's becoming a serious issue. Everyone thinks I'm a pervert when really, I just don't think before I say things traced with innuendo.

J - Jewish. Born and raised! Speaking of, l'shana tova. Happy Jewish New Year!!

K - Kitchen. It's one of my favorite rooms in the house because it's where the food is. I love baking and cooking and stuff as well.

L - Love. I'm a romantic. It's horrible. I want love and I want someone to love me for me. I'm giving up, which is why everything I write has love laced in between the lines.

M - Megan! That's me. And I hate my name. They spelled it wrong in the yearbook. I'm so mad.

N - Nerd. It's my most common nickname. I'm a dork. I know it.

O - Ocean. I'm really really scared of a lot of things relating to the ocean. Deep sea animals are freaky.

P - Piano. I played until I was 12 or 13 and I've been wanting to pick it up again. I used to be pretty good, for a 12 year old, and I always wanted to play professionally some day.

Q - Queen Elizabeth II. I have a weird obsession with the royal family. I did a whole report on QE2 in sixth grade and I've been interested ever since. She's just so cool.

R - ROLE PLAY! All I want to do is role play. Always. And I haven't had that much time since school and work started picking up.

S - Sleep. I haven't been getting very much lately, but I cherish every hour. God I miss naptime.

T - Theatre. All the world's a stage, but that's the only place I belong. When I'm up on stage, I feel more confident than I do anywhere else. I can't picture myself enjoying anything more.

U - United Kingdom. I am a bit of an anglophile and I can't get enough of British culture. It's becoming an obsession and an addiction... Sherlock and Doctor Who and Harry Potter and X-Factor are my life. Help.

V - Video Games. I love old-school gaming. Mario, Donkey Kong, Zelda, all that.

W - Writing. Duh. It's going to be my future career and it's what I'm best at. I love it. I love creating characters and making up my own worlds and being in control.

X - Xerox. Okay, so we don't actually have a Xerox machine at school, but I do make a lot of copies, being an aide for German.

Y - Yes. I've been trying to say "yes" to more things. I had a really good summer BECAUSE I kept saying "yes" to parties and dates and sleepovers. For the first time ever, I didn't sit on my ass the whole time. I went out with real people.

Z - Zealous. It's my favorite word. Also, I live by it. Be passionate.

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